I just came from my doctors and not good news;
my cancer, which i've been fighting for four
years, has progressed. There's one last ditch effort
that may lead to cure, which i'm going to
do, but if that fails, then estimates are
unpleasant; but I've been at this place multiple times
in the last few years, and so when someone
lives with that consciousness, something happens, something very
good happens. You kind of live each day and
you appreciate time, and in reality, just think
of it philosophical, you begin to die from the
day you're born. No one lives forever. Some
people live 20 years. Some people live 100 years
but in the grand scheme of creation, it's
fine. So in my opinion, it's not important
when and how you die. It's much more important
how you live, and so because when and how
you die is not in your control, but how
you live IS within your control, how you think
how you speak, and how you act is
within the free will volition of man. So,
my advice to people is appreciate the gift of consciousness
in life. You're being given happy birthday because every
instant of time is a reactive recreation. So dynamic
involvement in God's part for us to be. If
You woke up, that's proof that he wants you
To be that you didn't finish your job. And
I would say the world will be redeemed or fixed
Rectified through acts of goodness and kindness. Even if
The sword is on your neck, you should never
Give up hope. I do feel the sword on
My neck. But i'm still very hopeful. And
I live with more tranquility and serenity than i've ever
Had in my life, which is very counterintuitive because
For the carnage and the malevolence evil that i've come
Into contact with in the last two years, i
Would not expect that type of inner peace. But
What i've realized is that when you're in alignment seemed
To be in alignment with the divine will, there's
A certain gift of tranquility and it's not easy,
By the way, very hard. But so what
Um and constant struggle, but all the suffering that
I went through, I still wouldn't give it up
by the way, I didn't ask for this
Challenge, but no one asked me. So,
As I went through, I am going through it
the serenity is really something i've been seeking my
Whole life. I'm very grateful to have it